Break my heart N Let me Go Posted by Le3za , Friday, December 4, 2009 at 3:37 AM, in

Don't Cry Over Someone That Won't Cry Over You

No Guy Is Worth Your Tears & When You Find The One That Is He Won't Make You Cry

If You Really Love Something Set It Free.
If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be

Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like I Cried For You,
Some Day You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You,
Some Day You'll Need Me Like I Needed You,
Some Day You'll Love Me But I Won't Love You

Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.

My heart longs for you, my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you.

Forget who hurt you yesterday,
But don't forget who loves you tenderly today.

Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to who its worth.

Boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever.

The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.

No pleassure, no expressions just an illusion of what should of but wasnt.

I hate you for not letting me have you

I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody
but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...

I had a dream and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...

Saat Kau Pergi Posted by Le3za , Tuesday, November 24, 2009 at 11:02 PM, in

Entah mengapa hatiku terus gelisah
Apa yang kan terjadi
Air mata pun jatuh tak tertahan
Melihatmu terdiam

Ternyata kau pergi tuk selamanya
Tinggalkan diriku dan cintaku

Apa kau melihat
Dan mendengar
Tangis kehilangan dariku

Baru saja
Kuingin kau tahu
perasaanku padamu

Mungkin Tuhan tak izinkan sekarang
Kau dan aku bahagia

Apa kau melihat
Kau mendengar
kau melihat

Waiting For You Posted by Le3za , at 10:31 PM, in

No matter what happens, i will always be here. where ever you go, ill be waiting for you. you might walk away but i will give you my all. if you want it or not, im yours to keep. give it my all, give you everything i have. i believe your worth it all. in the end, everything will come together.

Don't Leave Me Posted by Le3za , at 10:28 PM, in

The pounding in my chest echoes your name. my skin aches to feel yours, if only just once. my veins burn with the heat of how it feels to be loved by you.my ears are deafened by my heart screaming for you.if only I could have you in my arms, I wouldn't feel the need to fill them with another.if only I could see you beside me, my eyes would not turn toward another.if only I could share my love in the most intimate way with you, I would not desire another.my dreams are filled with you in some shape or fashion.my life feels empty just with the thought of you not being in it.my words seems useless when trying to say anything other than "I love you."my attempts seem worthless when trying to prove it.my world seems pointless, my sadness endless.I need you somehow, someway I will settle for anything you can offer me, but never a goodbye.

Those days Posted by Le3za , at 10:21 PM, in

Those days, when you have no one else to talk to

Those days, when you feel blue for no valid reason ...or may be for many reasons

Those days, when you want to cry your heart out

Those days, when you find none of your friends on line

Those days, when you think...Life Sucks

Those days, when you cant close your eyes no matter how tired you are

I will be there for you on those days ,because I feel exactly like that some days...I will not try to judge you neither will I offer you any advice....I will just be there for you...I will listen to you....I would never say,things like, forget it....it could be worse......it will pass.... and blah...blah.I myself don't like to hear such stuff when I am depressed because all of them deny the integrity of our painful experience.

My Demon that I love to hold,
He's taken From me my sanity ,
And Soon they will come for me,
My mind is numb my thoughts dark,
Grab the blade that leaves its mark,
I want to end this wretched pain,
Tears scream my Demons name,
Save me from this dark despair,
Don't leave me all alone in here,
Hideous Laughter suddenly fades
Restraints make me feel depraved
Asylum she is now in slaved
Surrender to my forsaken grave.........

The day you left me Posted by Le3za , Friday, November 20, 2009 at 1:07 AM, in

To be honest, you've been on my mind since the day I met you. I remember every memories I had with you when i look at your photograph. I just can't keep the memories away from me...
I remember when we kissed, I still can feel it on my lips. The time that you danced with me with no music playing. Those are the things that i remember and I will never forget it. But just one thing that i wanna forget the way you say goodbye.
I woke up every morning and played our song and through my tears I sang along. Day by day, i picked up the phone and then put it down cause I Know I'm wasting my time and I don't mind.

True Story Of Me Posted by Le3za , at 12:51 AM, in

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.…”
“I can’t” “Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all. He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…

Then one day…

Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground.
He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday….

After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…
as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me…
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…

Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…

Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted… But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!” HONK~!! “Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.

That’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…

“One…two… three…” That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty five…” It all ended with 485 dolls.

I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…

“I love you~, I love you~” I dropped the dolls,shocked.
“I….lo..ve…you??” I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~” It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”

Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…

“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”

The tears came flowing out of me.
Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…

For that… and for that reason…
to me… it became courage… to
live a beautiful life.

GoodBye Posted by Le3za , Wednesday, November 18, 2009 at 3:56 AM, in

I loved you very much. You will always have a special place in my heart. I hope Eagle will have some solid memories of you, I know Snake does. For now I'll cry when I think of you. When tears turn to bittersweet smiles, I won't miss you any less, just be more used to missing you.

Sadness From My Heart Posted by Le3za , at 3:43 AM, in

"Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream"

"True love is when you shed a tear and still want him"

"The times we were happy together are worth the times I cry alone"

"Real loss only occurs when you lose something you love more than yourself"


"It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces"

"I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you"

"I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you"

"Loving you was my favorite mistake"


"Our sweetest songs are those that tell of the saddest thoughts"

"True love will never fade unless it was a lie"

"If you love me so much, why are you walking away?"


"You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?"

“People think it's holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go"

"A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried"


"We always ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us"

"Tears are words the hard can't express""The hardest to do is waking up without you."

"He taught me how to love, but not how to stop"


"My heart was taken by you, broken by you and now it's in pieces because of you"

"When you left, I lost a part of me"

"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met"

Introduction Posted by Le3za , at 12:33 AM, in

This is a place for me to tell my own sad story about the world on how people live on it and how cruel the world can be. Some of the story i experienced and some of them i search on the Internet. For those who are looking for quotes can find it on here. last but not list, I'll hope you enjoy reading my story and also my quotes. Thanks